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An interview: 

Q:  You’re awakened?  What does that mean?
A:  It is subtle, quiet, and extremely powerful.  The stillness is palpable.  Mind chatter of the past is gone. There’s no fear or worry for the future, no resistance or internal conflict, just living in the present moment, tapped into what is before me.  It is beautiful and it continues to unfold.
Q:  That sounds really nice.  How did you achieve it?
A:  I didn’t.
Q:  But you just said you said you were awakened!
A:  Ha!  Yes.  Let me explain.  I started out thinking I have some control over my life, and that if I find and apply the right rules, discover the secrets, find the knowledge that my life will work.  All I need to do is to be more disciplined; more connected, or think really positive.  Digging deeper, it became clear that I had painful issues, hurts, charges, if you will that needed to be resolved.  I learned authenticity and courageously began ‘doing my work’ to clear those charges.
Q:  Explain.
A:  Charges, as I’ll call them, are incomplete experiences, usually from childhood or other sources.  Something happens that is too painful to bear.  So, the experiencing of it is halted, and the sensation is held in the body.  Then the mind attaches a story to it, complete with reasons, justifications, and a hence polarized perspective.  This becomes part of our identity.  Since the hurt wants to be resolved, completed, life will create situations to do that, to bring it up again.  So we end up with recurring patterns, which are recurring opportunities, to complete those experiences and discharge those charges.  Life wants to move forward.
Q:  So you worked on a bunch of charges and got awakened?
A:  No.  But working on charges is very, very powerful.  Each time I completed a charge, more energy, or life force, or kundalini, flowed through my body.  Things brighten and I became more whole.  More and more projections were removed.  I began to have awareness of the whole process of charges: the creation, fear, storage, patterns, eventual facing, and discharge; then the increase in awareness, health, prosperity, openness and love.
Q:  Is that the release work you mention on your website?
A:  Yes.  This includes modalities like meditation, body centered therapy, breath work, constellations, somatic release, NLP, voice dialog, sexual polarity, spirit releasement, regression, various yogas, presencing, EMDR, parts work, NVC, trauma release, etc.  Over decades, I’ve cleared truckloads of charges in myself and am a spacious facilitator for others.  I’ve been doing that kind of work with people for years, with powerful results.  It’s gratifying for me and transformative, freeing for them.  It’s very beautiful work.
Q:  But none of that caused you to become awakened?
A:  No.  Clearing charges made me more available, more open, more capable of receiving.  And it raised the kundalini, or life force.  If the kundalini isn’t moving, a person won’t awaken.  Another thing clearing charges did was to make my mind’s ruses and strategies super evident to me.  Eventually I could see things, charges and issues coming, identify it, and let it quickly pass through without too much resistance.  For example, an issue that took, say 7 years to resolve the first time through, when the charge is completed was reduced to 7 weeks, then 7 days, 7 hours, 7 seconds.  My assumption about awakening was that once all these charges get cleared out and nothing sticks, you’re awake; you’re finally able to be here, present.
Q:  That’s not it?  Being cleared of enough charges to be present with whatever is going on?  To be here now, as they say?  That’s not it?
A:  In my experience, no.  What that is, is me being there with whatever arises.  I’m sitting here witnessing whatever comes up, letting it go.  I’ve gotten out of the way, am cleared enough, to see it all happening.  It’s the result of a lot of practice and hard work.  And it is a very cool state to be in.
Q:  So what kind of a state is the awakened state?
A:  Awakened is not a state.  It is easy to go into a state:  drink a few cups of coffee and you’ll be in a state.  Runner’s high is a state.  The infatuation phase of a relationship is a state.  Take drugs and you’re in a state.  They’re all nice.  And they’re all created by changed levels of chemicals like serotonin, for example.  Awakening is not a change in one’s chemistry.    
Q:  You’ve told me lots of things it is not.  How would I know when I’m awake?
A:  You can never be awakened.  Let me explain:  Common to all of these states is you.  You’re having a state, some kind of experience.  You’re thinking, you’re witnessing, you’re experiencing, and you’re seeing something.  For an awakened person, there is no “I” to be a part of any of that.  Things just happen. You, the experiencer, is not there.  Things just happen.  Things happen by themselves.  Thinking, seeing, doing, all that happens by itself.  You are only a concept.  I as a person don’t exist. 
Q:  Okay.  So you’re telling me you’re awakened and you don’t exist.  You look real to me, mister!
A:  What does exist is a set of functions, or automatic processes in a bag of protoplasm labeled Brian.  These processes have nothing to do with me.  They’re independent of me.  Me, Brian, arises out of a fast coordinated relationship between these automatic processes.  Slow things down enough and I disappear. 
Q:  So this awakening happened to you because you slowed yourself down enough so that you, or the appearance or concept of you, disappeared?
A:  No.  In my experience it is impossible to do that.  You can become super aware, finely tuned in, way slowed down, and see what’s actually happening.  But there’s still an observer there.  To get rid of the observer would mean getting rid of the self.  So it is asking the observer, me, to abolish myself.  Does anything want to die?  My self certainly did not.  The job of my self is to protect me from hurts and danger.  So the self would not only be committing suicide, but abandoning its job of protecting the bag of protoplasm, its home, me.  That doesn’t happen.
Q:  So how did you awaken?
A:  It cannot be done by the self, for the reasons I just explained.  The only possible way this can happen is as a gift.  I had to become receptive to gifts. 
Q:  And who gave you this gift?
A:  God, my Personal Divine, Presence, Love, whatever you want to call it.
Q:  You must be really religious.
A:  No, I’m not.  It’s not about religion, beliefs, dogma, practices or any of that.  It’s about relationship.  A personal, individual relationship with the Divine, Presence, All or whatever you relate to.  Maybe that’s Jesus, for example, for you.  Whatever you experience the Divine as.
Q:  So you’re saying your Personal Divine awakened you, and you’re not religious.  Okay.  What’s it like, being awakened?
A:  There is no I anymore.  Since I don’t exist, there is nothing to attach anything to.  Suffering, for example, still happens.  But it is not personal.  It is simply happening in this body.  I'm a conduit for it.  Once it is complete, that's it.  It's done.  The same with fear, hurt, anger, grief, loss and sadness.  Afterwards it is empty, complete.  In addition to these sensations, there is often causeless joy, wonderment and unconditional love.  Everything is happens by itself.  Nothing is personal.  There’s deep silence.
Q:  Wow.  I feel something; kind of open and spacey, especially around my heart area.  And around my head too.
A:  Yes.  It’s contagious.  You will be awakened, too.  There’s nothing to learn, believe in, practice, buy, join or remember.  There’s nothing you need to change about yourself.  Your Personal Divine loves you exactly as you are.
Q:  Sounds good.  I’ve really tried and struggled and learned and fixed and strategized, done all that stuff, long enough.  I want to awaken, too!
A:  If you have questions, please don’t hesitate to call me.  It’s my joy.